A LETTER TO THE PARENTAL UNITS

A LETTER TO THE PARENTAL UNITS

Do you remember the Coneheads and their term for parents, "parental units?"  I have always loved that.  Hubby and I have a friend that calls his spouse his "spousal unit."  Lol.  A little levity is good!  Well, really, this is a pretty serious letter, detailing life journey-ish things I've been speaking of in previous journals/letters.  I hope there is much to generate thought and introspection for you, within it.  As always, I share my journey, chronicle and describe for you, with the hope that I will help and interest others who are on their own journeys, here on earth.

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Hi Mom and Dad,

Touching base-

Hope you are well and happy. Write and let me know what is going on with you, should you wish.  I know I do not see you too often, but I love you very much and try to relate with you and share with you in my own, strange, art hermit way.  I am in a writing phase, a gift from the Muse, right now... so here is a little letter for you!

I continue to struggle with all the change and things constantly threatening to fall apart in my life, this year.  It is as though a switch has been thrown and time has sped up.  All the space between changes and difficulties seems to have been removed, leaving me with enough change and turmoil for a decade or two in the space of half a year... and no time to process or grieve!  I worry that I may be required to recreate myself again (as I did when I was young, so often) and do not know if I have the strength, health, inspiration, wherewithal, desire, umph, etc., to do it.  

I know, realistically, that I can only do what I can do. And, unfortunately, I think what I can do (with my differences, limitations, eccentricities) is different from or less than, in tangible/temporal terms, what the world demands.  I do not fit it the box that the world says all must fit in (and yet I seem to have some abilities and gifts that could be of great help to the world, too).  I think that dealing with (and discarding) that "box" is rather what 2012, OWS, the "ascension" of mankind, 3d vs. 5d earth, etc., is all about... but that is a whole 'nother can of worms, and the subject of another letter!

I have tried and continue to try to contribute to the world through prolific writing, creating, recording, teaching, coaching, performing, etc., all at a rate that only the Muse understands, and on a schedule that keeps me calm, rested, balanced, nourished and functional.  This is sort of good news/bad news:  I have a lot to contribute, but I'm also strange and have limitations.  I know now too, that I must do better at putting my life partner D first, and help him more, even (and especially) when it is hard for him to ask for help.  I have suggested and made a lot of changes in my/our life, to address this realization.

I am more aware of this good news/bad news aspect, now, yet do not really quite know what to do with it.   This year has highlighted this issue.  And, 2012 is, well, something like I have never seen before. Despite this strange, very hard year, I am busy attempting to truly learn to trust in and understand the Divine (as always), and am praying, manifesting, making changes, fixing things and plugging holes... and hoping my existence is not a sinking ship!   

I continuing to try to write, create, teach, perform music... to contribute and help here on earth as best I can.  Actually, despite this confounding year, I have completed two mixed media art series, started another, completed a sculpture and a weaving, written and illustrated several poems, completed a bunch of recent introspective essays, etc. That is good.

I share what I am learning through my creating with my students, those I perform for, with my readers online, and with friends that take the time to discuss things like life, purpose, spirit, etc.  I no longer can make my daily recording, but I did get (over the last decade and also recently) many audio and video recordings made and out to the world.  I hope these help and uplift others.

I am trying very hard to love D and help him, and have made this my top priority, over all that I list above.

So that is the background info, which is important to know (and I think you are basically aware of).  But the purpose of this communication, really, is to share with you an experience that happened to me on Friday. I thought you would find it interesting.  The CD referred to below is Cat Steven's (Yusuf Islam, now) Another Cup of Yusuf, by the way....

A friend recently spoke of a "wonderful surprise" that 2012 holds for me and for all of us.  I replied and told her of something amazing that happened to me on Friday.  Enclosing that reply I sent to her, below, since I think you will find it interesting:

"I do hope that this year (which has been pretty hard for me so far, with all the rapid fire change required of me) ends up having a wonderful surprise- for me and for all humans. I might have had a little glimpse or hint of that on the way to do a music performance on Friday.

On that day, I put a CD in (whilst driving the new car that replaced my truck which went kaplooey this year). And, amazingly, I started noticing all sorts of things around me as I drove. And then the strangest thing happened. Each thing I would notice, would be echoed, in exact timing in the songs I was listening to. I would see something, notice something, then a second or two later, the lyrics of the song would speak of it. It happened, boom, boom, boom, synchronicity, synchronicity, synchronicity, all the way to the performance.

I started to cry and knew it was God, trying to tell me something... I am not sure what He/She was saying exactly, but I knew that I was being reminded that God (whatever God is) is real, present in my life, active, responsive, etc.

I wonder if that is a hint of things to come... or the surprise of 2012?"

I love you both-
M