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LIFE IS BOTH "NO CRYSTAL STAIR" AND FULL OF INFINITE POSSIBILITY
"Gather ye Rosebuds while ye may," artists and humans,
for the older we get, the more we must accept the above!
First, in this piece, a bit of background (and I know it's a little ranty... bear with me?)...
I endured two dentist and two doctor appointments yesterday. As a result, there are some big changes in blood sugar meds, 4-5 X daily teeth washing routine, 4x daily blood sugar testing, cpap cleaning routine, etc. Is there any time for art, me, life, etc.? One wonders.
I am rather wiped out and overwhelmed from yesterday, and wondering if no matter what I do, my life is perhaps destined, each day, to be a long series of: cleaning myself, cleaning the house, cleaning cpap, doing chores, eating and sleeping at proscribed times, testing blood sugar, writing down readings, etc., etc., etc.
I had insisted to myself and my doctors that this was not going to be so, but no matter my organizing, insisting, communicating with doctors, going through little grieving processes, accepting early death if I don't comply... no matter what, it seems the doctors win... "Yes, yes, we accept your desires to stay in control of your life and destiny" say the doctors, nurse practitioners, etc... and, yet, ultimately, it seems, they win.
Somehow, I have ended up agreeing to eating and testing throughout the day, cleaning my cpap every day, brushing teeth and going through a complex teeth/mouth washing routine after meals and before cpap use, etc., etc., etc.
Young people... "Gather ye rosebuds, while ye may," Create all you can whilst you still have your youth and health! 'Cuz it gets very hard, it seems, to do anything but chores, minutia, washing, medicating, and taking care of the body, once you are older.
Ah, well... sad, going through midlife grieving processs, going through midlife crisis Merton. Three years and its not over yet! Waaaaa, waaaa, waaaaa.... rant, rant, rant.
Who can stand to listen to Merton, but himself? ...and he is not too sure that even he can stand to listen to himself!
Uggg.
Nonetheless, despite what I have written about yesterday, I did learn a lot, and I think solved some problems. It's tough being a human being and keeping up with all the physical changes of getting older sometimes, but I must buck, up, keep moving, keep changing, keep learning, adjust, go through my little grieving processes about various things, and make the most of what I have at each moment of my life... as we all must.
I still have things to learn, and things to offer to others, via my life, work, growth, creations, teaching, etc. I must take heart, stay in the moment, listen to my muse as best I can, listen to my inner guidance, evolve, and send positive energy out into the world. I must do this by being as fulfilled, happy, productive, helpful, loving as I can. It just gets hard with so much constant minutia (physical, chores, health, preparation, organizing, etc) each day.
Artists need to be left alone to listen to their muses and respond. The world and the body seem to conspire to thrwart. Ah well... keep trying, keep strategizing, keep attempting to make the most of each day, hard as it is!
"Life ain't no crystal stair, son" saith the poet. This knowledge and outlook exists in me.
"I am filled with light, love, peace, perfect effortless creativity, health, joy, etc" saith the self-aware manifester. This knowledge and outlook exists in me
How shall the two meet and co-exist peaceably... in me? In all humans?
The realist, the accepter of being in the body, the artist, the dreamer, the human, the manifestor... all must meet in one being, co-exist, learn, grow, evolve, stay willing and hopeful... together in me... in each of us.
It is part of the challenge of life.
Yes, "Gather ye Rosebuds while ye may," youngin's... for the struggles of Merton await you (and more)... I am just gettin' started with this aging stuff, too, and its not easy! And, I know that there are many who would say to me, "Aw shucks kid, that's nothing, and proceed to list all the stuff that they deal with each day. My list would suddenly seem very manageable! There is always someone, compared to whom, we seem quite fortunate. I must remember that. We must all remember that!
"Life ain't no crystal stair" especially as we get older (of course the young have their own set of difficulties, as I well recall).
The good news is that despite the lack of a crystal stair, getting clear and manifesting works for any age person, in any situation. There is always a way to a better outlook, a better way of doing/experiencing/creating/living, etc., etc., etc. ... no matter what.
Life is both "no crystal stair" and full of infinite possibility.
"Gather ye Rosebuds while ye may," artists and humans,
for the older we get, the more we must accept the above!
First, in this piece, a bit of background (and I know it's a little ranty... bear with me?)...
I endured two dentist and two doctor appointments yesterday. As a result, there are some big changes in blood sugar meds, 4-5 X daily teeth washing routine, 4x daily blood sugar testing, cpap cleaning routine, etc. Is there any time for art, me, life, etc.? One wonders.
I am rather wiped out and overwhelmed from yesterday, and wondering if no matter what I do, my life is perhaps destined, each day, to be a long series of: cleaning myself, cleaning the house, cleaning cpap, doing chores, eating and sleeping at proscribed times, testing blood sugar, writing down readings, etc., etc., etc.
I had insisted to myself and my doctors that this was not going to be so, but no matter my organizing, insisting, communicating with doctors, going through little grieving processes, accepting early death if I don't comply... no matter what, it seems the doctors win... "Yes, yes, we accept your desires to stay in control of your life and destiny" say the doctors, nurse practitioners, etc... and, yet, ultimately, it seems, they win.
Somehow, I have ended up agreeing to eating and testing throughout the day, cleaning my cpap every day, brushing teeth and going through a complex teeth/mouth washing routine after meals and before cpap use, etc., etc., etc.
Young people... "Gather ye rosebuds, while ye may," Create all you can whilst you still have your youth and health! 'Cuz it gets very hard, it seems, to do anything but chores, minutia, washing, medicating, and taking care of the body, once you are older.
Ah, well... sad, going through midlife grieving processs, going through midlife crisis Merton. Three years and its not over yet! Waaaaa, waaaa, waaaaa.... rant, rant, rant.
Who can stand to listen to Merton, but himself? ...and he is not too sure that even he can stand to listen to himself!
Uggg.
Nonetheless, despite what I have written about yesterday, I did learn a lot, and I think solved some problems. It's tough being a human being and keeping up with all the physical changes of getting older sometimes, but I must buck, up, keep moving, keep changing, keep learning, adjust, go through my little grieving processes about various things, and make the most of what I have at each moment of my life... as we all must.
I still have things to learn, and things to offer to others, via my life, work, growth, creations, teaching, etc. I must take heart, stay in the moment, listen to my muse as best I can, listen to my inner guidance, evolve, and send positive energy out into the world. I must do this by being as fulfilled, happy, productive, helpful, loving as I can. It just gets hard with so much constant minutia (physical, chores, health, preparation, organizing, etc) each day.
Artists need to be left alone to listen to their muses and respond. The world and the body seem to conspire to thrwart. Ah well... keep trying, keep strategizing, keep attempting to make the most of each day, hard as it is!
"Life ain't no crystal stair, son" saith the poet. This knowledge and outlook exists in me.
"I am filled with light, love, peace, perfect effortless creativity, health, joy, etc" saith the self-aware manifester. This knowledge and outlook exists in me
How shall the two meet and co-exist peaceably... in me? In all humans?
The realist, the accepter of being in the body, the artist, the dreamer, the human, the manifestor... all must meet in one being, co-exist, learn, grow, evolve, stay willing and hopeful... together in me... in each of us.
It is part of the challenge of life.
Yes, "Gather ye Rosebuds while ye may," youngin's... for the struggles of Merton await you (and more)... I am just gettin' started with this aging stuff, too, and its not easy! And, I know that there are many who would say to me, "Aw shucks kid, that's nothing, and proceed to list all the stuff that they deal with each day. My list would suddenly seem very manageable! There is always someone, compared to whom, we seem quite fortunate. I must remember that. We must all remember that!
"Life ain't no crystal stair" especially as we get older (of course the young have their own set of difficulties, as I well recall).
The good news is that despite the lack of a crystal stair, getting clear and manifesting works for any age person, in any situation. There is always a way to a better outlook, a better way of doing/experiencing/creating/living, etc., etc., etc. ... no matter what.
Life is both "no crystal stair" and full of infinite possibility.
LIFE IS BOTH "NO CRYSTAL STAIR" AND FULL OF INFINITE POSSIBILITY
"Gather ye Rosebuds while ye may," young artists and humans,
for the older we get, the more we must accept the above!
"Gather ye Rosebuds while ye may," young artists and humans,
for the older we get, the more we must accept the above!
© 2010 - 2024 mertonparrish
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Oh, I don't mind listening to you...people tell me I should be a psychologist because I'm never bothered by listening to people complain. I'm sorry you're going through all that. I can't imagine doing all those strict routines. I hope some way will emerge to help you deal with it or even enjoy it somehow. I have to clean parts of the house at a certain time every day...I've taken to making different sorts of tea and letting them steep while I clean, and when I'm done I can drink it. It's kinda adding another routine to the cleaning, but it still seems to break up the monotony a bit, because I like making tea and tasting the different ones.